Changes

Hello readers,

I'm so sorry for the lack of updates! I don't have proper internet access at my home and my landlord won't fix it, so I don't have the opportunity to update on a regular basis. It's highly annoying!

Lately, I decided that I don't feel like a lolita anymore. So I decided to not call myself a lolita anymore, and I most likely won't participate much in the lolita community anymore. I used to wear lolita on a regular basis, which later turned to wearing it only occasionally, at events. By now I haven't worn lolita in... probably a year. So I think I've grown out of it, even though I still like the style, and still consider it a hobby of mine.
I also think my interest in wearing it faded because of the changes in the community. When I first got into lolita (which was 2007 or so), it was okay to just wear some pretty make-up. But now, wearing wigs, lenses and eyelashes almost seem like a requirement. I don't feel like a pretty lolita anymore if I don't wear them, so for me the fun is gone. I never liked all those fake things.
I sold all of my lolita clothes, except two dresses and a blouse and cutsew, and some accessories I love. I'm still planning on wearing them every now and then. It's just that there are other things in my life now, which make me much happier. I've come to realize that in the end, lolita fashion really is just clothes.

One of the most important things in my life right now, are horses. When I started to wear lolita, I forgot how much I love horses and what a positive influence they have on my mood and confidence. I never got such a positive energy from anything else.

I'll get some photo's of horses printed soon, and these two will most likely be printed and framed. Most people who know me on Facebook already know these are two of my favorite photo's. I just can't get anough of them.

On the photo on the left you can see me with Omo, the pony I started out with a year and a half ago. She made me gain trust, and I did my first bareback canter in 10 years on her back!

The one on the right is me and Moira, a lovely Friesian. I was a little scared of tall horses, but she helped me gain trust. One fun fact: She always refuses to lift up one of her hind feet, but I managed to do so once I started feeling more comfortable around her. Things like that are a great confidence boost, so looking at this photo reminds me that you can get over fears, and that more self-confidence has a positive effect for yourself and others.

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To close off this entry, I decided to post some pictures of one of my recent looks. As I said before, the trends I currently like are:
- Peter pan collars
- Studs and spikes
- Crosses

I'm not wearing any crosses on these photo's, but I am wearing some of my favourite things. Including my new boots! I was very lucky to find them in my size, because they were constantly sold out. Do you like them?

I'm also wearing my new mascara in the photo's, which is a new favourite of mine. It's the Chanel Inimitable Intense mascara. If anyone's interested, I might do a review!

That's all for now, I hope you liked the pictures, and that you're having a lovely autum.

Love, Nonette

Style dilemma's

Do you know this feeling of not knowing where exactly you belong? I'm having a huge difficulty figuring this out lately, especially when it comes to fashion style.

Me wearing Moi-même-Moitié

I don't know what my style is these days. For the past few years I have been into lolita fashion, but in the past year a lot of things happened, and I started to wear more casual clothing. It's been a very tough year for me, and so I didn't have the energy to dress up in lolita anymore. And it seems the energy and enthusiasm I used to feel still haven't come back to me.

I do still like lolita fashion a lot, it's truly beautiful. But it seems I'm falling in and out of love with it all the time. One moment I can consider selling everything I own, the next moment I want to buy more things to match my items.

I suppose I'm searching for who I really am. On one hand I feel like I'd love to be a lady from the Rococo Era, wearing pretty dresses and riding in carriages, and my house beautifully decorated.

On the other hand, I feel like a modern woman, who likes to wear sophisticated tops and skirts which compliment the figure, in simple black or in bright colors. Someone who wants to make a career, and who likes to follow the fashion and make-up trends.

It's quite contradicting, to like both alternative fashion styles and fashion trends. I know I don't have to choose between them, but I wish to be confident in whatever fashion style I like.

I think that's the most important thing of it all, isn't it? To be confident.

Detail shots:
my latest casual purchases

How did you figure out where you belong?

What is it that made you feel confident in your own style?

Most treasured lolita items

Since I saw others posting about their most treasured lolita pieces, I decided to do the same. I believe Josine was the one who originally created this idea, her blog is right here!
I don't wear lolita fashion often anymore, but the clothes are still valuable to me. So here it goes!


† My first lolita piece

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My very first lolita dress was a simple Baby the Stars Shine Bright jumperskirt. It wasn't completely my style, but at that time I couldn't afford dresses from brands I really liked, such as Moi-même-Moitié or Alice and the Pirates. Still, I wore it a lot, and I liked how cute and doll-like it looked.
Later on it became my dress-I-don't-mind-getting-dirty-or-damaged, so I wore it a lot to concerts. I now don't wear it anymore, but I'm also not sure if I really want to sell it or not. First lolita dresses are always special!

The photo is quite terrible, but I don't have anything better.

† My most beautiful lolita piece

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I don't own this dress anymore by now, but it was the most beautiful dress I ever owned in my entire life: the St. Peter's Reversed Cross Lace OP from Moi-même-Moitié. I bought it new with tags, and wore it only a couple of times to meetups or for photo's. I was always afraid to dirty or damage it, and later on it made me feel too dressed up, so I didn't wear it anymore. As gorgeous as the dress was, I decided to let it go in the end, because I hadn't worn it for 2 years. A beautiful dress like this is supposed to be worn! I sold it to a friend, who looks truly gorgeous in it.

† Most used lolita piece

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I'm not quite sure, but I think it has to be my black Moi-même-Moitié cutsew! On its own the fit is awful, it's way too short for me, yet too wide in the waist area. But I always wear it under my JSK's, and I really like the way it looks when worn like that! It still is my favorite cutsew to wear under JSK's. I never liked blouses.

† Most comfortable lolita piece

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Well... my opinion is that lolita clothes aren't comfortable. Period. But if I had to choose, I think I'd choose my Metamorphose bloomers. Back when I still wore lolita quite regularly, I used to take off my skirt and petticoat when I got home, and just walk around in my bloomers for the rest of the day at home.

This is the best photo I got of my bloomers. You can see its lace sticking out from under my petticoat. I like this unintentional Marilyn Monroe photo, it was a fun day! (Denise, let me know if you're okay with this photo on my blog!)

† Lolita piece with the most emotional value

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This will have to be my Moi-même-Moitié Blue Jeweled Cross necklace! I had been wanting it forever, and it does have a special meaning for me, but I'll keep that for myself. It's really beautiful and even though I don't wear it a lot, I love it to bits. I often just like to look at it and see how it sparkles.

† My most expensive lolita piece

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Without a doubt: My Moi-même-Moitié Holy Queen print JSK. I spent ages looking for it, as it was my dream dress. In the end a friend in Japan managed to get it for me at Closet Child, but the price was quite high and the exchange rate horrible. Nevertheless, I never regret it. It's my most beautiful and favorite dress now, and the color and print are gorgeous <3

Frills or Manes?

Okay, so I thought I'd be motivated to write about lolita fashion again, but it seems I'm not that much into it anymore. I do still like the fashion a lot, but I don't care for it on a daily basis. There used to be a time when I'd feel special or like a princess in lolita, but I think I've grown past that. By now, it's just clothing to me. Very pretty and expensive clothing, which I only wear for special occasions.

Lolita fashion isn't the thing that makes the world a better place for me anymore. What really makes me happy, are animals. Particularly horses. When I ride a horse, nothing else exists that moment. Just me and the horse, even if we're surrounded by other people. While in lolita, all I worry about is the other people. "What would they think of me, what will they say behind my back?"

Generally, I'm not exactly a people person. I distrust people. And I believe that's what I like so much about animals: they have a pure heart, they're always honest. They won't ever pretend to like you, they will either like you or they won't. And they will show it to you, they will never hide the way they feel about you. And if you do something they don't like, they will let you know. But if you treat them correctly and with love and respect, they will give you so much back in return.

I suppose you could say that my world is about animals. And it's my dream to someday mean something to them. I would love to someday start a barn for old or mistreated horses. For horses who just need a place to spend their old days, and for horses who need to recover. I think that is my dream.

One of the earliest pictures I have of myself with a pony

The last photo taken of me with a horse